I find it hard to tell the difference between stuff I shouldn't do and stuff I ought to force myself to do

Sometimes I make myself do things that I don't want to do, and it's amazing and I'm so happy that I did those things.

But then there are the other times. The times when I make myself do things that I don't want to do, and then I'm like, "Oh my god, why did I do that? I didn't even want to! I expected it to be horrible, and it WAS horrible. It was absolut…